this has been in my head for ...7 years

"now santa, if tim mcgraw can do a duet with nelly then i want three beutiful straping strong black men to sing with me" *santa music* "oh look! it's ja rule, ludacris and saquillllllie oneal! hi fellas!" "what?!" "i said hi ya'll" 'nononon, that's all i ever say. what!?!" "what?" "WHAT?!?!" "what?!" "yo playa, we came to crunk up your christmas BLAAH!" "actually, i just came to say merry christmas, and koby sucks" "well fellas, time to drop that mad rapper beats ... deck the halls with balls of holly"

yep. i should be euthanized.

the other day

in music we had a slide about chamber music.
i wrote down the header ... and my notes were actually just all my favourite quotes from the play.

i had a near death experience for a whole second this morning

i was asleep in my bed and all of a sudden the door opens. i look over AND THERE IS A FUCKING MONSTER/GIANT there. i didn't know what was happening but i was 96% i was going to die.
and then my eyes focused and i saw it was actually clement coming to get his stuff ... but when something that size turns up unexpectedly in your doorway it's an unsettling experience.

saw a fbook status:

fun fact: your pupil dilates as much as 45% when looking at someone you love

if i had a nickel for every time my bestie guy friend looked at me and commented on the size of my pupils ...busted.

i lead an embarrassing life

went to take my pill in the middle of rehearsal cause that shit takes forever. i grab my water bottle out of my bag and open it but instead of nice refreshing water inside THE THING SPRAYS VODKA AND PEPSI ON ME. in front of everyone. and you could smell it.
and then i sneezed in class and everyone laughed and i got all embarrassed and was like 'i hate my sneeze' and then my prof was like 'THAT WAS A SNEEZE?!! i thought someone had a squeak toy.'

it must have been the sleep deprivation

but i somehow missed the fact that i was initiated into IBX on march 26th.
i swear to fuck the most amazing things happen to me on 26ths.
infact. i met my current three best guy friends on sept 26 2008, sept 26th 2010 and sept 26th 2011.
my life hinges on a drama rehearsal. this is more than i can handle. but i gotta get back to mem hall ... i gotta get back to school. gotta get myself to mem hall, where everybody knows i cool.
back to genia and fredrich and the hoffriter villa. to tea things and dusting and bringing out snacks. it`s all that i love and it`s all that i need at mem hall, mem hall. i think i'm going back. i'll see my friends and i`m probably going to cry. miss my cues cause we haven't done them yet. can't say anything bout the next line without giving things away!
AND IT'S GONNA BE TOTALLY AWESOME!

actuallllllllllllllllllllllllllly.

bahaha

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.


oh boy does this life amuse me.
it doesn't get under my skin, it just makes me laugh my ass off :)

i had a dream

where i was at a party having rum shots.
i woke up and my mouth tastes like rum shots.
pretty weird.
but this march break is awesome. it's everything i wanted it to be and so much more.

it's good to be home

mah friends are so chill. and they stay in the same place, which is lindsay's basement and that's where everything should be.

so much 'cited

for agm. and pei.

it's going to be WONDERFUL considering i've been stuck in a house alone with ... well, i'm sure you all know who i've been stuck with. AND I WANT TO GET OUT. AND AWAY. and take a fucking break from everything and spend the next week holed up in lindsay's apartment living the kind of life one only can on pei.

my right eye

it's called sectoral heterochromia and i have gone 21 years without knowing the real word for it.
this is big.
i always joke about robby having a huge list of afflictions while the only one i'm able to put on mine is 'vegetarian'. but look at this! some sort of condition. i wonder if we have a support group?

drama class

was told a third of the class failed the mid-term ... the prof had to tell us to stop laughing.
that may have never happened in any other class in any other university in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD.

this is the best quote you will ever read, i promise

the guy i wrote a post a little while back mentioning about how he must be constantly stoned to come up with the things to say that he does treated us to a gem today. we were talking about how we need a tortoise and a scorpion for the play and then ... this:

"my friend's pet scorpion recently passed away. i can see if he'll give us his corpse.'

i don't know if it was cause i had a mug full of bailey's and minimal amounts of coffee mixed in with me, or because that was the funniest fucking shit i've ever heard anyone say in my life, but i can't even re-tell the story without breaking down into fits of laughter.


latttttterrrr though we were at the sub in a little drama group and he was sitting beside me eating his dinner. when it came up that i was a vegetarian he thought he would be funny and offer me ham. i swatted his nose in punishment. did you know you can easily correct behaviour in boys with gentle swats to the face? the he told me lambda was his favourite greek letter because it was like a word.

also, it might have been extra funny because he was wearing a suit.
but i think it was mostly because i was a little drunk.
i have a bailey's addiction. my mom got me some for christmas.

i also just finished a french waffle vanessa got for me. i was just sitting in drama with them on my lap. and i got a 'very cute' on my drama journal.

worst mistake i ever made

was putting my phone on silent before i went to bed last night.
it resulted in me missing french waffles. my friend works at the dkt and said she'd text me whenever they have them for breakfast and she would give me a guest pass and i could eat like 14 of them. and the one day they do have them i'm asleep until 5 mins before the caf closes.

update:
i got a text from her saying she swiped me some. love her.

have you ever wondered ...

who reads you blog?

people, what are your names?

my sneeze

i sneezed today in classics.
later in the lounge one of the guys in the class came in, saw me and was like 'your sneeze scared the shit out of my! i thought someone got shot!'

this is my life, guys.

sometimes

a six hour facebook chat conversation is just what you need.

same thing

happened today. we were all visibly down ...
some of us we in the sub after class and laughing just felt so good. thank god, i don't know what i would do.

at dram today

we were all so blahed out that it really felt like nothing was getting done ... and that was kind of discouraging and i was getting a bit frustrated to tell the truth but then something magical happened. i don't know who started it but all of a sudden our spirits lifted and everything was perfect again.

thank god, i almost stopped loving every aspect of it for a moment there.
also, cause nathalie was so enthused about it at the meeting tonight i started playing wetopia. it's all the addicting aspects of sims and farmville mixed together. what fun! i was going to re-arrange my room tonight and stuff ...

what i bought

pixie stix! they were at bulk barn. i didn't even know they still made them. i wanted to grab the entire display of them but i felt the old man in front of me would judge me.
reminded me so much of 2004 and 2003. every penny of mine, ellen's, shelby's and karley's allowance was spent on these things.
and the time in grade 7 math class when we taught alesha how to eat them.

what's grosser?

the fact that girl's bodies make people or that boy's bodies make itty bitty sperm? these are the things i think about ...
also, robby and i had a talk today. about him shaving off his beard. i have so many mixed feelings about it.

i want to marry this song

Hey George you’re peculiar, alive in my TV
This will put you to sleep, I have no fear
My life is simple, how do you fill your days?
Push your antics like drugs and sex and I do it just the same

Make me laugh
Forget about my day
Disturb me in your
Lo-fi teenage way

And I don’t believe a word you say
I tried to turn off today
But the same time every dark day
I am wasting time on you

Boy, you’re something special like the freaks I used to know
This means nothing at all but I have no fear
Just make me laugh, forget about my day
Feed me adolescent cutaways

I don’t believe a word you say
I tried to turn you off today
But the same time every dark day
I’m wasting all my time on…
I’m wasting all my time on…

I’m wasting all my time on you.

be in this place

am i excited to go home and see these girls again? yes.
i don't know when that's going to be. around march 10th if my calculations are correct ...............

............. i wish i could just stop time on relationships back home while i'm in fredericton. even though they've always been good at staying in the same place and always being there when i come back it's not like actually being there the whole time.

du nu nu na

i just remembered an old secret handshake of sorts my friend and i had in grade six that i haven't done in years. i just did it out of instinct and i conplety forgot where i was and what year it was. for a few moments i was back in sixth grade.
then i came to with quite the sense of panic.
it was an intense moment.

i moustache you a question .....

... did you enjoy my tequila fuelled post last night?
also, i'm making valentines. they revolve heavily around shapes cut of from construction paper.
as you may or may not have guessed ... i'm making robby's right now.


ample resting periods are often required after tequila nights.

i'm too tequila for this right now.

what is the point of you right now? basically tonight i wanted to push him out of my sight and ignore the fact that he's a person. cause i don't want that in my life night row. it was comfortable for a while but that shit is over. SO BE OVER GODDAMN IT.
i should just drink tequila from now on. it brings out the best in me. in the sense that i'm about to die from laughter at this:

you're gonna have to come see the dram2170 play in order to get it, but i will say we're basically all sluts. which could be proven if you've ever been to a cast party.

and i had the best moment of my LIFE when straight up by paula abdul come on. saula represent.
and i'm just going to leave this here in regards to what ahppened mid-november. you know what i'm talking about ...

all that stuff has been bugging me my whole life, cept the part about being tall. i've had family eating disorder interventions for gods sake.

also, here's some opictures that i've saved on my laptop. they must be funny or else why would i have saved them?

so we can devise that ...
rum makes me feel sexy and i usually end up with a boy by the en of the night.
vodka makes me puke and hate everything i do with my life.
gin makes me slighty compsed but still so shitfaced i can't tell what's happening.
whiskey makes me restless.
and tequlia makes me ... i don't know if there's a word for it. unfiltered? blunt?

i honestly don't give a fuck any more.

no, i shall surround myself with 18 year olds for as long as i please.

"well, i hate to do this to you but ... i don't think we're going to make it to your scene tonight."
"oh thank god, i'm so relieved. i thought you were going to say you were cutting my part."

i think i almost died. literally every time that kid opens his mouth i get happy because i know something just so out in left field is going to come out of it. so much so that you actually begin to wonder whether or not he's always stoned.
"what if all the air ... just turned into wood?"
other baked people would think about that for a while and have a break-down.

sweet part of the city

read tyler's post about first year love ... made me think of all my first year friends and where we are now. most of them are graduating this year, which means most of them are moving to places far from NB. i've heard england to alberta.
it kind of makes me wish things could be like this forever.
we were talking to a guy last night at formal who said 'just fuck off as much as our can during first year.' it got me thinking ... even though that ship has already sailed i did a good job of making timeless first year memories. making out with boys in the computer lab, dress-up nights, painting with bob ross wednesdays, watching youtube with liz and nick for hours, making muffins, bradford fights, mudslides.
it was a great year.

i have here in my hands ...

the script.
hello script, i think we are going to be together forever. actually, you have a lot riding on your. i'm counting on you to come through and bring about the kind of timeless quotes we got last
term. but no pressure or anything ... i'm sure i'll love you no matter what.

my first nightmare

i don't know if it counts. it was horrific (and i'm actually shocked my mind could come up with something that twisted) but ... it had a happy ending. do nightmares usually have happy ending? or was this just a freaky dream?
but i woke up and decided i would be less creeped out by it if i went back to sleep. so i did ... and slept though history.
turns out history was cancelled.
success liz.
frail professor.

i keep fearing this is the calm before some sort of metaphorical storm. life is just too good.
i also feel like any day now i'm going to get sick. so so so sick.
or maybe 2011 was the year of crippling illness. i was sick all through feb of last year with whatever illness i started to feel right after nick and i broke apart from that kiss. and then there was august when i was so sick i was on antibiotics for the first time in my life. and then there was my stomach flu in october ... after i left nick's that morning.
conclusion: nick makes me sick.

things i want to do with my life:

- the next vanna white.
- one of those people who wash animals off with dawn soap after an oil spill like in the commercials.
- sex column writer.
- someone who smokes weed and paints in a tiny apartment in nyc.
- the owner of a tacky souvenir cart on a tropical island like aruba.
- worker in some kind of factory that makes something like toothpaste.


the possibilities are endless.

also, this happened:

talk about random. the last time i talked to this guy was april 21st 2009. the was also the only time i talked to this guy. he survived countless fbook purges because of his beard. i feel kind of weird about that because if his face was hairless then he wouldn't have seen the year 2010 as my facebook friend.
i bet he's wondering why i still have him as a friend. bet he doesn't suspect it's his beard. also, about the first thirty times someone mentioned justin beiber i thought they were talking about this guy.

my purse

we have this sort of love ...
he was just abandoned one day at wal-mart. i found him and checked his price. he was only ten dollars and was perfect in every way for me so i bought him.
a few weeks ago i was walking home on saturday night when all of a sudden the poor guy had enough and his strap just broke off right in the middle of my walk (which was kind of for-shadowing the rest of my night ...) i was rather upset. he and i have been through a lot together. this summer linds, moo and i had all had the same style of bag, black over-the-shoulder. it reminded me of our friendship.
i fixed him and pinned my letters to him.
he better feel the love and not break again cause i'm trying to make this long-term thing work.

just smile

life is too good not to smile. i even sat in the classics lounge today and talked to robe guy. there's a guy at unb who just wears a robe, it kind of looks like an asian ceremonial robe ... i don't know. but he's just as socially awkward as you would expect! now if i only had a pair of nude high heels to complete my formal outfit i would have everything i want in the world. except world peace.
nd to know what damn play we are doing in 2170.

it's a special kind of love.

drama llama.
i think i'm crazy attached to most organizations/things i belong to. shall we take dram2170 for example? i know i talk about this class a lot but that's only because i devote a great deal of my time to that class. there's class time and rehearsal time but there's also bonding time outside of class. today vanessa, matty, robby and i went to dkt for dinner. where we sat and talked about the penises that we have known. well, the girls talked. half way through we stopped and watched robby look uncomfortable for a while.

you motherfucccc-ahhh.

oh boy, oh nick.
it's weird now that things have to change with him and i.
i have to suck it up and walk home in the freezing cold at night instead of falling asleep wrapped up in his warmth. and with only a few months left of being in the same province.

hello.

"don't look, it will just make you sicker."

i think that was a moment for sure.

last night i dreamed

we did the 2170 show again but instead of sets we just had one door, we had no props, costumes or anything. i wore a white shirt, red pants and blue shoes.
also, i was dating a small asian man instead of robby.

all i remember is this:

the itsy bitsy spider went up and over the moon
down came the rain and washed out all the spoons
when i get all steamed up
here my shout
tip me over and pour me out.

my friends and i made that up in grade nine. i actually don't know how the real thing goes.

rivers of glue!

today i did two VERY VERY BALLSY THING.

ballsy thing number one: i used power tools whilst we built a drama thing. that right, plural! not only did i use a drill for the very first time (i don't understand drills ... sometimes the drill spins with the screw and sometimes the fucking thing just spun in my hand) ... and i used the old power mitre saw again. of course, i was the last one of our group of 12 to use it. i was trying to hide behind everything and everyone, but damn that mike. so i sucked it up and sliced through a piece of wood even though i was visibly tense and nervous. after matty and vanessa gave me hugs. i have the best drama friends, i love them lots.
best quote:
"oh yeah, let's just let clement eyeball things. let's put him in charge of africa. border disputes? he can eyeball them!"
like i said, i love us.

ballsy thing number two: i initiated 'the talk' i fucking fucking fuckinggggggggggggggg hate the talk. it's never fun for anyone involved. but i did it. he came over after drama na di made dinner, spaghetti, and we did that thing from that disney movie that i never saw where the two animals take a piece of spaghetti and use it to make the two of you kiss. cept somehow he got sauce all over his face. i was all adorable and cleaned it off for him. things went great after that. it just seemed right. i asked what we 'were', he rambled for a while and then eventually asked if i wanted to be his girlfriend.
THANK
FUCKING
TITS.
so now i have a boyfriend whose birthday is on valentines day. thanks for the pressure, that's kind of a big deal. i'll just have sex with him or something.

today was not crap

not that i was expecting it to be ... but you can never be too sure.
it all started when i woke up to a text from liz asking what my living plans are for next year. i said we should be roomies. it wasn't until cindy and i were walking to the classics lounge that i realized it was three years ago today that liz and i officially became roomies. i told her this and we think it's a sign. then i had a great time in the classics lounge. those people are pretty entertaining. then drama times omg lolololoomghahahyayayaya. samuel gave me a piece of gum that tasted like apple pie. len came in wearing a trench coat. i was standing with robby at the time (who once has a penchant for wearing them) and we had a great moment. we split up and half of the class (aka the suckers) had to go down to the wood shop and build a drama thing. we (the winners) got to stay upstairs. we were statues for the first half of the class. we spend a lot of time being statues. i had some great moments as a statue. i was a dead girl being mourned by the guys, then i was an ancient roman warrior, then i was a tiger hunter, then i was a guilt-stricken mourner. then ... we all sat down in a circle and the most amazing thing happened. i. saw. clement's. face. he's six foot six, essentially just a torso to me. but we were sitting down and he was kind of at eye level. it's amazing because the first conversation he and i had i was literally craning my neck. of course i'm so shocked i screech 'oh my god, it's your face!' ... while everyone else is dead silent ... and then everyone laughed. then robby, matty and i went to the sub for food. when matty went to class i dragged robby back to my place and he showed me how to do my build assignment for drama. and now all i have to do is copy his work! i rewarded him with kisses and cupcakes. then the spyce party, where in ordered some more mint body wash and had some laughs!

willow

this is not enjoyable for me. five bucks to anyone who guesses what two things in my life are not enjoyable. the last time i did that the person got it. i asked her what two drama guys she thought i had kissed the past night. she got it with no trouble at all.

so. (i was just going to use that title but i guess i've used it before)

i'm creative.
i have the icing. i need milk and i need eggs. i'm going to get those tomorrow and everything should be peachy come saturday.
I AM GOING TO BE BALLSY.
(seriously, mr. spell-check? you have no problem with the word ballsy but have no fucking clue what i mean when i say movie, sorority or clementine?)

cause years ago i wrote posts like this

drama friends have been taking each of my tibbits demons and killing them
we saw a rainbow
we sat in dkt
we are the bestest friends in the whole wide world
i liked it
i'm getting to used to this
just cause you're actually a giant doesn't mean you don't have to act like one
sittin in the sub
it will be three years tomorrow
it really has been three years
dinner, he better like my cooking
i can't tell anything
i think i'm going to bake cupcakes

horrific stories.

THIS

i love this.

solid advice.
is her your boyfriend? - yes - are you sure?
mah lifeeeeeeeee.

hum

so today at the meeting i learned tia also has a blog. should i seek it out? nah. why bother?
and really all i want to talk about is robby. basically, this is the inside of my head: robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby. robby.
it's an interesting place.
nick has probably forgotten about this thing by now, i should be able to put it public again.

so.

got some crazy news over facebook. by reading a cousin's status.
crazy is not the right word to use but i'm still not sure what i should actually feel.
it's not like i don't care, i mean ... he was my grandfather.
i call him grandfather because i feel like it's the most formal, most respectful. grampie, gramps, grandpa ... they all have a warm feeling to them. it doesn't seem right to call him anything other than grandfather, or chester. all my life he's been chester. i guess my grandfather, chester ... he died on wednesday. i didn't find out until last night. if it weren't for facebook i'd still be in the dark. so there i was, sitting in my room just wondering ... why my cousin had 'rip chester' in her status. wouldn't i know if my own grandfather had died? you'd think so. i checked other facebook pages, condolences were being offered. so there i was. confused as all hell.
thank god for my sister. if you think i don't take things seriously you should see my sister. she can make light of any situation. she decided to initiate 'occupy cottage' in protest to not being told about it. and she reminded me that there is a good chance we might get to see our cousin melissa, who hasn't been around since summer of 2009.
and robby. he made everything else better.
so now here i am.

for a day where i didn't want to get out of bed ...

it turned out amazing.
i realized there was no point in going to history today because the prof would just rehash everything she told us during the other first class and i'd sit there and be like 'kay, w/e, i hate this class.' so i sat in bed and wrote a letter to linds instead.
when i got to classics who ended up sitting down beside me but the first guy i ever loved? who recently got engaged! and two other mack people showed up! and two boys with nerd glasses!
the prof was late so i got to catch up with the boy again. and oh my god, the fuckin' eyes on that one. i could still get lost in them. he was wearing a leather jacket though, and nothing turns me off like a leather jacket on a man.
after that i went to nicks. russell was there and they were both having baileys. i was having judgement. and temptation. i fucking love baileys. but i can't go to drama drunk. not after what happened last time. and then chuck moved in! i haven't seen chuck in like a year and then all of a sudden he's roomies with nick.
then, and this might have been the best moment of my day ... i went to drama. and i saw my drama besties! AND ROBBY WAS WEARING A SWEATER VEST. that boy can wear a sweater vest ..... i think it's the beard. our new drama prof then went around the room and told us all our names. somehow. i don't even understand. we were all like 'WTF?!?' and clapped afterwards.
then we mimed stuff. like tug of war. i fell on my butt.
that's right, i played imaginary tug of war today.
WHAT DID YOU DO IN CLASS?
then after class we all spent time hanging out together. we helped matty find her next class and had awesome time and cuddles and everything.

so first day of class was not all that bad. maybe i won't skip so many this term (haha)

it feels like

i've been waiting for this day for the past FOREVER. but it's here. i'm going to vomit.

so guyssssssss

here'sa list of clothing items i bought before robby:
- a grey sweater
- another grey sweater, but bigger.
- a black cropped thingy
- a dark blue and grey striped top
- a navy blue sweater

and then here's all the things i bought the other day when i took advantage of boxing days sales ... and now that there's robby:
- an itty bitty bitty pink cami
- an itty bitty frilly white cami
- a sheer white button down top
- a beige lacy dress
- some sexy pants
- a lacy and frilly top
- a very see through white sweater

notice something? i got a lot more adorable.

i had a great night last night with everyone. the regular bitches were there, and i mean bitches in a good way. respectfully. even though lindsay died and the navy were almost called ... our lives rock.

wedge day

i guess as your grow older these are the things that mean the most.
today, december 22nd, is know as wedge day to me and my three best friends from grade school. this is the day of the year where no matter what, we get together. a little pre christmas tradition.
it's called wedge day because we eat food in wedge shapes.

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

not my own words

i gotta role though the days without you here
i got a shock
shock
hurts to heal.


phack. i really like that kid and i'm not gonna see him for a while. someone cheer me up.

Things that's suck:

The next time I see my beard friend will be 2012.
Also, I have an exam the day after my 21st birthday.
But I'm mostly bummed about not seeing that guy for a while. He has an awesome beard.
I also miss my drama classes. Xmas break really gets in the way of my enjoyment of school.

Sorority girls and blogs

so yeah, i did what i did. i really did. but i was venting it the only form i knew how. i wasn't writing it with he intention of having the other girls read it and chuckle at it. i was writing it because i needed a release

so this is why

girls often have guy friends. not just for the epic challenge of getting out of the friend zone and into his pants.
gotcha.

but yeah, the things with the whoppie cushion atiken boy fizzled. i just found out from on of my sisters last night that it was because of someone telling him that i didn't come home the night i was drunk adventuring with nick. so he thought i was sleeping with nick. if only that were the truth. so now i'm in a pickle. do i tell him and risk the possibility of him not caring and the risk that he's good friends with many of my sisters? i don't really have much to lose i guess.

fashion sense?

your tired to get your friend to buy going out clothes at reitmans.

really?
really?
really?!!

eveskies

her uncalled for bitch moment of the day:
painting a lovely portrait of myself on my arm in nail polish. she telling me to stop cause nail polish is expensive. she has over 100 bottles. she is never going to use them all. STFU and leave me alone to paint all over my body if i wish.

my punchline

Russ says:
guess what im wearing
Elizabeth says:
nerd glasses!?!?!?
Russ says:
and...
Elizabeth says:
... your sexy pants?
Russ says:
a suit
:)
Elizabeth says:
ARE YOU GOING TO A BUSINESS SEMINAR?


one day he and i were hanging out and then he had to go to a business seminar so we part ways. three minutes later he comes chasing up behind me all freaked/embarrassed because when he showed up in jeans and a hoodie everyone else was wearing suits. it was a pivotal moment.

confession

i'm listening to my canadian idol season one cd. it's worn out from being played so much.
i was crazy obsessed with that show, i had idol fever to say the least. i loved everything about it. i loved the music, the judges, ben mulroney's chin ... it was unconditional love. my sister was the same way. we'd watch it religiously and always voted after the show.
i don't even know how many times we watched the tapes we made of it. we listened to the cd pretty much all the time. audrey was our favourite but we also liked ryan and billy. years later my musical tastes have expanded. i still love love love the sound of billy's voice but i fell in love with jenny's too. we didn't like jenny at the time, we thought she was just too odd and that they were making a big deal over her mediocre voice. now i get it, her voice is amazballs. i still have some of the music on my ipod and oh the shame, i made the first season into a dvd. i have it in my room ... and now i want to watch it sooo badly.

fuck yeah!

a whole weekend of no passive-aggression or meowing freaks!

bets!

i'm taking bets on how long that apple core is gonna chill on the table. i want to see if i can get a good pot going for this.
also, was observing russell's roomies today whilst dining with him. no passive aggression ... so jelly. also, kid greets me wearing nerd glasses, goodbye platonic friendship, hello panty drop.

and this

Elizabeth says:
oh you know ...
THE GUY I LOST MY VIRGINITY TO JUST GOT ENGAGED.
Russ says:
so nick got engaged, eh
i mean i got engaged, eh
i mean nick got engaged to me, eh

...

the guy i lost my virginity to just got engaged .................. can we all just take a moment to take a gulp of air?

just perfect

i recently learned you can view past google searches. well one night nick and i were just spending quality time together and we started googleing random things. here is part of our search.

those are special.
i found another day where i apparently searched for harry potter porn and then an hour later for the ratio of gay to straight men. i don't even have to question whether or not joel was using my computer. joel was using my computer.

argh.

it's funny actually, she looks like she's pergo, yet she hates kids. and when she does see a kid out in public she whines and complains about it... thus making herself sound exactly like that kid.
i need to be nicer but it's really really hard.

yet another baby step

we're getting there.

time, where did you go?

like srsly, wtf? how am i so busy? i'm never usually busy but lately it seems like i have a billionty things to do every day. yesterday for example ... mid-term studying began at 9am, class at 1, mid-term at 2:30, homework from 4 till 7:30, play till 10, visit with liz, nick and hansika and then xbox with a boy till like ... 1:30. plus, i somehow managed to be in the sub for 10:30 doing more homework. i guess that's a good thing ... but it's totally out of character. and then there was tutorial (me marvelling at the hunky tutorial leader).
i realized something weird in my three minute walk to class. i passed three different people i knew and one called me elizabeth, one called me fred and one called me liz.
i have a lot of names.

i'm at the point

... but then he was waiting for like a minute.

advice for 17 year old liz

i got the idea from nathalie ... but i changed the age to 17 cause i was a december baby and wasn't 18 until halfway through first year.

- stand up to cath and tell her you don't want to be roomies, it will never work out.
- don't spend so much time being in love with your biology teacher ... he's your biology teacher ... it's not going to work out.
- emily, shayne and lauren are three of the most precious and important friends you will ever have, keep that in mind this year.
- that grad party you're planning to throw at your cottage without parental knowledge will not go as planned.
- make more swimming/jimmies dates with your friends, those will be your fondest memories of your grade 12 year.
- don't waste your time with matt, he's not that cute. flirt with brent, he's really cute!
- cut your hair shorter.
- put some kind of effort into your math grade.
- tibbits will be the hardest time in your life but looking back i wouldn't change anything about your time there. just keep your head above water.
- don't scoff at the iota beta chi poster every time you see it in the bathroom. THOSE GIRLS ARE NOT PROBABLY BITCHES. YOU WILL BE A PART OF IT SOMEDAY.
- DO NOT TAKE ASTRONOMY.
- don't let timmy become so so so important to you. he's a cool guy to watch chuck with and fool around with, but nothing more.

this is why he's my friend

Elizabeth says:
and your cat as well.
ah no!
i've made out with my future father in law.
Nicolas says:
heh not future
were already married
hahah
hahahahah
muahahahah
what is that, like a ms robynson thing?

james and lily

11 more days! then i can complete my harry potter collection. seven books and eight movies. for shiz taking the WHOLE DAY OFF and watching all 8 movies back-to-back like a professional hermit.
except i have to go to classes. i always go to classes.

MORE EMM SONGS

NEW SINGLE. OMG. DOWNLOADED IT. i caught sight of the look on my face when itunes asked if i wished to purches it. my mouth was open, i had a HUGE, ridiculous looking smile on my face, my eyes were tearing up a bit (more than a bit), and i was nodding my head at an alarming rate.
I WILL LOVE IT FOREVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

i forgot to mention

he's an aitken boy. i'm a tibbits girl. could i make it any more obvious?

he was a skater boy
she said see you later boy
he wasn't good enough for her
... it's what's in my head now.

i sense tension

it's in the house somewhere. someone is not happy with someone. it's most likely me they're not happy with. i seem to have this talent ... i've had it ever since i bleached the shit out of my hair. it's called 'i walk into a room, see a guy, think about how much i want him, have him following me around like a puppy by the end of the night.' it's worked on every guy except one, DAMN YOU MAN-PRIZE. last night i set my sights on a guy dressed as a whoopee cushion. i had some obstacles to overcome but in the end he ended up being around me a lot. and then the party dwindled down to a small handful of people and he was making it obvious that it was below freezing out and i had no business walking home and i agreed with him. and i give him an A when it comes to cuddles.
also,

"if you're fred ... what's emily's nickname?"
"ernst"
"erin?"
"she's mini."
"what about rachel?"
"truck driver."

that crackedus up so much cause rachel was the furthest thing from a truck driver ever!

it was a long time ago

today, i hung out with the first friends i made when i came to unb. minus jackie who's god knows where, knee deep in asians. but it was nice. i was just thinking about how much of an idiot i was when i first met these people.

frick.

double frick.

i was getting work done ...

then my roomie and her bf came home and started cooking. then i started listening to that.

"do you want perogies?"
"yes"
"mozza sticks?"
"yes"
"spaghetti?"
"yes"
"garlic bread"
"yes"
"cheese on it?"
"yes"
"cheddar ok?"
'no!"

okay, i'm paraphrasing but the point is ... with my lack of apatite of late i'm just about going to be sick thinking about that meal. i'll stick to eating half a granola bar for breakfast. because the whole thing is too big. so big that i have to save the other half for later. i'm actually going to look like a skeleton come halloween. i won't need that cute little french maid costume. my own body will be my costume.

and they're eating now. smells good. like garlic. i like it most of all because the first guy i ever loved kissed me for the first time after eating something with garlic in it. since i can't concentrait on anything because they're eating RIGHT OUTSIDE MY ROOM i'm going to answer questions about neopets.

01: When did you start playing Neopets and how old is your current account? i was 11 years old, man. 11. my account is 9 years.

02: How did you find out about Neopets? emily and devin!

03: Favourite Neopets species? usulllll

04: How many pets do you own and which is your favourite? four, and i can decided between moonbeam and petrigirl.

05: Favourite Paint Brush colour? maracite

06: Favourite Labray only colour? chocolate

07: Favourite Petpet species? slorg!

08: Favourite Petpet colour? phft.

09: Favourite Petpetpet species? the snail guy

10: Favorite Neopian world? tryannia, on account of it's artwork

11: Which team do you pick for the Altador Cup and why? i just pick one, no reasons behind it.

12: Favourite Avatar? the tnt aaa one

13: Which chat boards do you usually chat in? none. they're all fucktards there.

14: Are you in a guild? yusssss.

15: Favourite Faerie? souuuuuuuuups. i soup. you soup? soup soup soup.

16: Do you have a gallery and does it have a theme? yus and yus/

17: Do you use the Battledome? yeah

18: Do you use the NC Mall? no

19: Favourite shop to shop at? hawt dawgs

20: Favourite game? turmac roll, eh.

21: How many items are currently in your Safety Deposit Box? 11710. nine years of crap.

22: Whats the most amount of Neopoints you’ve ever had at one time? millions.

23: Do you use the Stock Market? sporadically

24: Favourite Daily (ex. Coltzan’s Shrine, Tombola, etc.)? tombola!

25: Do you decorate your Neohome(s)? my CLASSIC neohome!

26: What is a Paint Brush colour TNT should release next? no opinion.

27: Favourite hero? Favourite Villian? mah and mah

28: Favourite plot or site event? uhm ... the tyranina thing from when i was a newb was cool.

Day 29: Are there certain items you collect? bitten green apples FTW.

Day 30: Why do you like Neopets? because i'm quirky.

yeah, her bf and i have never been good pals. WHICH IS WEIRD CAUSE I WAS THE ONE WHO SET THEM UP. THAT'S RIGHT MR. YOU HAVE ME TO THANK FOR YOUR HAPPINESS. HOW ABOUT YOU SHOW A LITTLE GODDAMN APPRECIATION? nah, just kidding. i don't actually care the least bit.

i really want to email all the girls from first year and just inform them as to how big nick's penis really is. i feel like it would provide some closure for those who were not as fortunate as i. should i write that here? i'm not sure if i should. ahhhh, whatevski. it's true. because we all actually spent time talking about that for some reason. AND NOW I KNOW. i touched it, it was fun.

adventure of the day

i went with my friend to get his hair cut and to look at new glasses. he would not, no matter how much i wanted him to, get a comb-over and horn-rimmed glasses. which i guess is for the best. nothing screws up a good platonic friendship than an uncontrollable attraction to the other.

heart and soul

i downloaded a countdown app. what i'm counting down to is funny and sad at the same time.

blerg

don't feel good.
do this sometime:
Memory Jar: Adding memories throughout the year and then reading them on New Year's Eve.

bows

i don't know what it is, maybe i'm just an awful person ... but i DON'T LIKE THE BOW MY ROOMIE IS WEARING IN HER HAIR RIGHT NOW. i just had to get that out. it looks ... not cute.

i made you this rant

KAY. i am not in a good mood for once. i have a stomach virus that i have to fight off all on m own. and it sucks and i feel nauseated. and my unb email isn't working because they made the switch to some connected thing which uses outlook, what a blast from the past. srsly, the last time i used the was on windows 98. over a decade ago. and i'm prettyyyy sure i got ripped off at the tims in the sub again. a danish and bottle of just SHOULD NOT COME TO SIX DOLLARS. why wasn't i thinking? and now i'm eating the danish and it tastes like cherry cough medicen and butter. they used to be so good! and yeah, just rather stressed out right now.

for some reason

i still think of these girls. we had such fun together for 72 minutes each day. i've always been good at finding blow-off classes but this one was on such another level, i feel like it could be in community.

liz doesn't feel all that swell

intense tummy pain, no apatite and all i want to do is sleep. i was just watching my roomie eat slices of cheese dipped in bbq sauce. it was torture. this is officially the longest i've gone without taking a nap in two days. ackkkk.

yay for big sisters!

so yeah ... just went through quite a bit of heavy stuff with nick. we stayed up long into the night talking about everything. and then when everything was settled we curled up together and went to sleep. warm, peaceful, sleeps.

dear me,

don't you cry over this, you've been doing good so far.

i like the things my friends say to me

Russ says:
sup liz
you should visit me in the librarryy
or are you a crappy friend?
you're not a crappy friend, are you?
oh god
i-i-i think she's a crappy friend
i thought you were better than that liz
hey everyone, have you heard? liz is a crapy friend
Here lies Elizabeth MAcdonald
she dies as she lived:
A crappy friend
R.I.P

sept 26th

i don't know how it happened but amazing things happen to me on the 26th of septembers. it all started with a kiss. and then it was meeting nick, and timmy and russell. three very important boys, two more important than the the other ... but still. every sept 26th changes my life.
this year it was just every minute something awesome happened. i woke up with no outfit inspiration and then it saw it: nick's plaid shirt. then in class i sneezed and someone random said bless you and i felt like i had a new friend. then i was auditioning for 2170 and after my group had done our read through the director singled me out for the part i realllllly wanted and got me to read a bunch of her lines. THEN I USED A FUCKING POWER MITER SAW TO SLICE THROUGH A PIECE OF WOOD AND WAS VERY BRAVE. and then a very nice guy with curly hair and i had a conversation. and then we got internets of our own, and then i had a chat with nick. and then EM GRYNER RETWEETED MY FUCKING TWEET.
yeah, i didn't even bother to make this post look good. cause i liked this day :)

vestidious

it's not so much a friendship as it is a three year long head-game.

people

i was walking home from downtown alone tonight and just happened to be going at the same pace as some other guy. we walked near each other for about 30 mins and then spoke to each other at the exact same time. it was so freak. he ended up offering to walk me home. i suggested we walk through campus. which is when i ran into creepy justin! and that tyler kid and a mack frosh! oh, the torment. i miss res life. but yeah, i gave that kid my number ... maybe he will text me.

what i think disneys are about

Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs – A girl lives with seven short men and no questions were asked and then some lady gives her an apple which she eats at it makes her faint until a prince comes and wakes her up with a kiss.
Pinocchio – an old man builds himself a son because he doesn't produce sperm and then the boy lies a lot and his nose grows.
Dumbo – a circus elephant learns he can use his ears to fly and everyone thinks he's super duper but then something happens.
Cinderella – girl mistreated by family, rides in a pumpkin thanks to her fairy god-mother, meets boy, loses shoe, boy returns shoe, marries her.
Lady and the Tramp –a girl who is high class meets a hooker and changes her life.
Sleeping Beauty – snow white without the creepy living with dwarfs.
101 Dalmatians – a girl tries to make a coat out of 101 dogs but they all outsmart her.
The Rescuers – the fuck? never heard of this one.
The Fox and the Hound – a fox and a hound either fall in love or become bffs. and then share a plate of spaghetti and kiss.
Oliver and Company – never heard of this one either.
The Little Mermaid – a mermaid wants to be a human so she makes a deal with her dad and gets legs and has to find true love in three days or else he takes he back to the ocean. or so i figure from watching aquamarine.
Beauty and the Beast – girl with stockholm syndrome marries a beast even though there was some guy with a mustache named gaston who loved her and sang a song about himself.
Aladdin – aladdin, who is not the blue guy, makes himself into a pince so a princess will fall in love with her. (i've seen this one)
The Lion King – mustafa, the father, nala, sarabi and all the other lions love their jungle home until the dad dies and then shit gets real but i wouldn't know how real because that's when nick and i started to cuddle.
Pocahontas – a native princess jumps off a cliff and a guy named john catches her and falls in love with her but he can't date a native princess ... but they prob do anyway.
The Hunchback of Notre Dame – a hunchback walks around screaming about bells and keeping off the grass.
Hercules – prob varies greatly from the greek myth so i won't bother.
Mulan – nick and i cuddled while watching this too so who knows?
Lilo and Stitch – a girl meets an aline who becomes her brother and they go surfing in hawaii until he wants to go home.

a spool of wm stickers, a broken framed picture of their favourite manager, and a de-activated page of sensomatic labels.

three things that most wal-mart employees don't end up with in their purse on their last day of work.

we've seen how far a roll of receipt paper would go, stole one of the pictures of management, i have my very own spool of wm stickers, i got about 30000 goodbye hugs, i read my favourite excerpt from harry potter to the unloaders, got my revenge on rodger for only feeding the fish once a week by taking an entire cart full of returns and hiding it all over toys/sports, spent time on the clock chillin' in the break room, wrote/revived goodbye notes, had poems read to me over the loudspeaker, had tara call the nightly meeting my goodbye part instead, received many good luck wishes in school, skipped through infants with some other girls trying to revive it's lost innocence, kass came up to me with her arms spread out and actually gave me a hug, had tara say she'll miss me, did what linds and i do, heard my last 'aut-o-motive a8twone', de-activated a whole sheet of sensomatic labels to see if they would make more than one loud ding ... they did not ...

SO MUCH MEMORY.

it's ok ...

i'm not compleltly bawling right now becuase i'm not ready to move on from wm or anhything ...

two

i do not have very more shifts left. together they total 20 hours. fuck, i'm going to cry. i like that place the best when we're all coming together to make it not a disgusting mess like it usually is. and when there's funny gossip.

don't lean in too close

hhhooo boy, i'mma miss y'all.

blah ...

it does not even feel like summer is ending. fuck, i know the last of my shifts ... it really is ending. the greeter cup is on sunday, that makes this whole thing feel like the end is near. wahhh, i'm gonna cry so hard on my last day.

blah

i read this, it made my happy.

More than 32.000.000 fans on Facebook
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More than 320.000 fanfiction authors
And now, only 1 million have the exclusivity to help J.K build our Hogwarts online until October.
Yes, we will be the FIRST ones on Pottermore
Years ahead from now, Pottermore will be even more huge than already is, and we’re the FIRST class, the first ones to be chosen by the sorting hat, to step inside this wonderful experience. The first Slytherin class, the first Gryffindor class, the first Hufflepuff class and the first Ravenclawn class.
Congratulations. We are the chosen ones!

frick, i'm such a nerd.

maybe this ...

shouldn't be named after something he said. would that lessen the torment?

i like it here right now

fucking full moon ... you and your tricks. i was with linds tonight, just walking around and all of a sudden we see a trampoline so we're jumping on it and someone lights off fireworks. and then i got a free doughnut. fuck yeah.

emm gryner basically owns my heart

... i found snippets of her new album on amazon. at first i freaked out and listened to caio monday and then i stopped. i didn't know what to do. wait to hear them all on the real thing in spetember or ruin it right now because i'm so fuckin' impatient when it comes to her music BECAUSE I LOVE IT SO MUCH. ACK. i elected to only listen to the tracks that i know ... and then cry a bit because there's a chance i might have moved to freddy by the time her album gets here.

i don't understand where the time went

24
and the days are ticking away. i got a promotion(?) at work which involves 8 and a half hour days starting at 8 afuckingm. i'm just not cut out for that type of thing and it's eating away at my social life (and our habits of drinking on weekdays and 3 am trips to tim hortons) ahhh well, it's back to freddyville soon. and back to roomies and rush. i am SO excited for rush!! and i get to see nick again. when we were in freddy in june we went creeping around the house and found a path in our back yard that leads directly to new res ... cheeeyah.

how is it the 26th?

oh my god. i'm having such a good summer again. i love everyone i work with.

i love when it's all too much

Nicolas says:
what is 2 things thats ment to be together for 2 hundread please
Elizabeth says:
what is you and me? haha.
Nicolas says:
hmmm
who are two people who havn't spoken in a summer for 500


good good

exchange of words

'i'm bored.'
'me too. wanna come over?'
'ok, but i was so bored i started plucking my eyebrows. i have to finish my left eye or i'll look stupid. be done in about 5 mins.'

summer is going good. i have lots of friends and the boy i had a big ole crush on in grade 8 wants to 'get to know me.'

moments that make it

it's just the silly things. the things you laugh at in the moment but if you think back to them in a year they've become so cherished. i think that i'm making a lot of those this summer.

last summer? oh god. sundays, just sundays as a whole. for some reason the best days were sundays. probably because it was and lukas' usual date night after work, which was always a time. like the time we all gathered in the front and played where's waldo? because there wasn't anyone in the store. or when i was on 8 and everyone eles was 1 - 4. jill came over and gave me a magazine of taylor lautner pictures because she felt bad for me.

and then she died!

i like this very much.

i'mma write a short story ...

about today. and i'm going to call it 'elizabeth's day off that was not relaxing'.

my favourite words:

derelict.
reverie.
candelabra.

what we're ever really after

baby, you're doing it wrong. all this expecting and waiting for a so-called 'good thing' to happen ...
i like driving anywhere and i like thunderstorms and eating chocolate chips and mentally bitch-slapping those who try and make me feel like an idiot for being a vegetarian. put those all together and there's as good as anything.

i will never accomplish this. i think visiting nick has the biggest chance ... and paling around with tara is last on this list. or maybe the seduction part. i think that's good be a hard one to get done.

today at werk:

reading a magazine, vest cinched with a belt, not following the dress code, not on the red line, not wearing my name badge, not asking people about cards or donations,

it went a little like this

because as odd a thing to admit to, it can play along. was i not sitting in the lounge in mcl for the very first time? that place was still new to me

stitched

i mended the pants that i ripped climbing over the fence the night we first kissed. i think we changed into better people

syncopation

nothing is ever going to be able to stop this. i love our ability to dream in beautiful.

paranormal activity

he's not even online and hasn't said anything, it's just there somehow. totally freaky, right? i'll chose to interpret this as a sign.

you don't know why

i feel like i'm living summer of 2010 again. mainly because i've been spending my days in a blissful oblivion. as far as 2010 goes, that summer was ass-kickin'. i had the bestest friends and boyfriend of my life, i was heading to a happy place in the fall and i could do no wrong when it came to work because i had everyone there wrapped around my fuckin' finger. there's something missing though, i wish katie was still here! we had the best times, i still crack myself up when i think of the time we were there during xmas season and we say joey at the courtesy desk and we start screaming "we love you, joey!", or 'pancake expert', the pizza nuggets ... 'i just see you going up to a super-store employee and yelling 'PIZZA NUGGETS!!' in their face, so many times in ctown, the chocolate ice cream ...
damn, why am i so nostalgic? i still use that lip-gloss, it's in my vest pocket.




http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Criticism_of_Wal-Mart
one day, i will change this.

stigma, it is greek after all.

today, at werk ... i was talking to one of the girls who is thinking of going to the massage school in freddyville. i got all excited and said 'you should rush my soroity! iota beta chi!' then, across the room another one of the girls there says 'oh god, she's a sorority girl.' i then had to defend my choice to be greek in the break room. when i say i'm part of ibx there's two reactions people have, only two. they either say 'they actually have those?' or they ask 'like in the movies?' then i have to say 'no, not at all like in the movies' it's not some cheesy group of drunks that movies portray, it's a group of amazing girls who i would never have otherwise met.
so yeah, that's my piece.

came appart

i feel like it would be so hard to watch that building go down. to see a place that contributed so much to my childhood standing tall one moment, but reduced to rubble the next.
every sunday school lesson i sat through that i got nothing from. it's where i always imagined i'd get married. so many christmas eve services i sat through as a anxious child.
it was it's time though, i guess nothing can last forever.

election fever

i voted for the first time yesterday! i've only been waiting for two years to do it, gosh. it was a great time though. my mom and i went and she got lots of pictures, including one with our liberal candidate.

me: i'm shocked that bev oda got re-elected but thrilled about justin trudeau and tony clement!
mom: the good, the bad and the ugly.

i must admit i enjoy tony's tweets an an mp. my twitter feed would be must less interesting without him. i also feel that he's vestford in 30 years.

same cologne, ex-girlfriends and the fact that nothing changes in this town

i've been back in my little bubble for two days now and i must say it's good to be back. basically, i was walking up there just thinking 'why, why why why why whyyy am i doing this again?' and then i got there and val asked if i was wearing socks. so completely random, but that was the exact same thing she said to me on my first day back in 2009. the first person i saw who i was excited to see was brad, and that right there brought back the excitement. i love seeing people after long, long periods of time but i HATE goodbyes.
so then same old, same old. i asked steve what he had been up to these past 8 months and he said 'i'm now mentoring young boys' but of course i thought he said 'well, i've become really interested in young boys.' that was the kind of thing lukas and i would have laughed over for days. so when i saw him again i figured i should open with that story just to get him used to us being friends again. good laughs were had, thank god. everyone was asking me how awkward it was going to be working with him again. i may be an awkward person but i never want to be awkward with someone. that made no sense but i had a point. everyone still wears the same distinctive cologne, which comforts me because i don't like change.
phffttt. gingers.

26 is my favourite number

because it all started sept 26th 2004.

& i want to be inside your heaven.

evrytime i read this

tracklist for the record (in no order):

TRANSATLANTIC
HEARTSLEEVES
CIAO MONDAY
SURVIVE
HOME
NORTH OF THE BORDER
FAST EXIT
A LITTLE WAR
LAST DAY ON EARTH
AGELESS

I JUST GET SO EXCITED. a re-recording of little war AND fast exit? i am in love! and last day on earth finally released! i don't know any others but that just ADDS TO THE EXCITEMENT.
i love emm gryner more than i can articulate.

never stop being a part of my life

Nicolas says:
reminds me of you
made me laugh
Elizabeth says:
it reminds you of me?
whyyy?
Nicolas says:
he fuckin loves it
ahaha

all alone ...

i don't know what it is but ever since getting home i have very little interest in talking to anyone except my mom, my sister and my cat. there are times when i look at my phone and think 'i should see what lindsay/jessica/katie/other people i like are up to ... ' but then i don't. i think i'm having trouble adjusting to life back on the island. i think i miss a certain someone so much i'm spiraling into depression. ok, no i'm not. that's just too pathetic. i just miss him bunches. i miss a lot of people bunches. i neeeeeed to do something with my life. i elected not to go back to work this week because i'm smart and wanted to avoid the easter rush. so i've been sitting in the house reading books/ watching sabrina the teenage witch/ perfecting the recipe for home-made chai and green tea lattes. and pining as per usual. that is a big summer activity for me. those are not enough to make me feel fulfilled and useful. hopefully things will get better monday when i actually go back to the real word. it would be really nice if there were normal people at the wm that i could be bestest pals with for the summer. it would out wonderfully with linds and katie last year. otherwise it's back to crazies as per usual. i wonder if any of my regulars will recognize/remember me. creepy stalker man did, even though i was wearing my disguise. that worries me because from what i've heard and the stories around town ... he's a psychopath! god, i don't know how some people can stay in that bubble.
and it's back to that world on monday. i'm kind of scared because i think this is the time in my life where i'm supposed to go out and find a real job. i'm so comfortable i don't bother because i know i have it too good at wm.

i know

"i'm not a fan of his'
'i think he's cool ...'
'has he ever religiously hit on you?'
'no, has he ever religiously hit on you?'

haha.

i had something to say

but i forgotted it ...
...
...
awkward silence ...

being back on pei has already bored my soul to deathhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i went shopping for food with mah mom and i kept suggesting things and she kept asking what flavour and all i wanted was regular type. i'm so interesting.
i went with my sis and her friend to take a picture in front of the city clock tower at mid-night tonight. normal.
also, it's freezing raining, i'm hoping for an ice storm. those are my fav.

home.

i'm back in summerside and well, i miss freddyville! i'm actually listening to muchmusic right now just to fill the void. later, i'm going to blast great big sea in the bathroom next to my room. it will be like being back in mack.

muddy

every now and then somebody posts a picture from the time a group of us went mack mud sliding in first year ...
i saw a new one today!


there's my lovely red tibbits shirt, my best guy friend and my neighbour!
i'm trying to study bio but it's the fear of the pictures on the slides that's keeping me from it. i'm not procrastinating, i swear. i just can't handle seeing pictures of a guy bleeding from his face whilst dying of ebola.

my day in tights

i just wore the same pair of tights for about 50 hours ... and they saw some times.
put them on on on wens, then i went to the hil to study with tia. and then to supsup. then to mcl to cheer up kendra, then the liquor store. back to mcl and then home where i told nick we need to spend some time together since i am leaving in a week (which at the time was true). when i got to nicks we talked for a bit, watched a movie which almost made me cry. when it was over he asked me to tuck him into bed and tell him a story. he was some sort of knight or whateves. anyway, the telling of the story and his comments took a while. he grabbed his guitar and started to play and i laid down with him. he strummed and we talked. about everyyyything as per usual. it was like 4am and he said 'well, we may as well cuddle.' so we cuddled. annnnddd back came the feelings, which was not all that fun. we eventually both fell asleep and didn't wake up until 12. i put on a different dress and went to the sub to studddddddyyyyyyy with kendra. then we went to meal hall, then the liquor store. back to mack and had taken 4 shots by the time 4 rolled around. went to mcl for 5 ... same old, same old. back to mack and then all of a sudden tia pulls out her phone, looks at me and says 'jason just texted me asking for your number' that's when i spilled my drink all over the floor. the entire floor of my room. so not even significant becuase i was happy as a clam. we text-flirt for the next hour and he invites me up to mcl for a bit. and then back down to mack to find a hurt little vestford who just needs somebody. he tells me his story on the verge of tears and then we cuddle. since kendra is passed out on my bed he and i decided to have a sleepover. wake up at 12 once again. room is deserted and a mess. things everywhere. can't deal. study. take hour long nap. wake up. TAKE TIGHTS OFF FINALLY.

i made bread, liz

today is bogus.
for some reason the window is stilllll open. i can't close it on my own and i will eventually break down and ask dear neighbour or vestford or someone to close it ... but when brit struggles with it i laugh.
i'm debating not going to history again. it's three hours long, i don't need to go and i want to read harry potter instead. however, it's so much fun to watch people be nervous and awkward when presenting. so much fun.
just got back from meal hall ... the person attached to ben's beard was talking about bananas and i mentioned they were radioactive. he said i didn't know what i was talking about, cause girls don't know science. but whatevski, they are. no big deal or anything.
when i came back i saw marty and since it's now april our conversation tally has been reset. in feburary we only had one conversation and that's basically unheard of for him.
posted by all the doors here are sheets of paper that say 'LOVE! take as much as you need.' and then have little tear away strips at the bottom that say LOVE! i took one, i feel the love.
nine days left.
"i've decided that since i never know if you're asleep or not i'm just going to start opening the door and hope you're not naked."
today at dindin i sipped tea whilst casting disappointing looks at tia and cory. and then she bailed on our study date. but on the bright side, sat near cory and exchanged words! whenever i think of someone casting disappointing looks all i can think of is cath. ohhhh the glares. ohhh people who are dumb as soup. my poli sci proff told us that his dog is 'dumb as soup' the other day. it actually made me laugh out loud, maybe a little too loud. same thing happened last week in bio. the prof was explaining something about horse antibodies being injected into humans to cure the plague or syphilis or whatever (note: i don't actually pay attention. it's too gross, i sit with my head in my hands, rock back and forth and say 'i want to go home, i want to go home, i want to go home') but my point being: the prof said 'now are any of you wandering if this makes the human body think it has a horse infection?' i was in the middle of a sip of hot choco and i almost spit it out. i managed to keep it together but i was still killing myself with laughter right there in the front row. everybody else had a light case of the chuckles ... but i was downright losing it. everyone in that class must think i'm mentally unstable, i'm surprised i have classroom friends.

whenever this happens

i think of the advice wendy gave me in 2007 'just date ... because you never know.'
miss them. miss that place. still, the chances of me standing this guy up are pretty high.
pretty high indeed.
however, it shall not go well. here is how i know. instead of writing 'sounds like a plan' i wrote 'sounds like a plague'. i don't know why. oit's three am and i'm awake talking to nick. things that never change year to year are nice.

Elizabeth says:
i thought we pinkie promised to be friends forever!
Nicolas says:
yes
im not sayin i won't be your friend
im sayin distance
,like two friends getting back together.

i think i was just holding on to him while i was with joel. once things were over i felt different about him. maybe it really is different or maybe i'm just afraid of getting into one of those situations with him where i think everything is going to be perfect and then i realize what a character he really is. or maybe the thought of leaving and going home for the summer and having to deal with four months apart was too much for me.
faaaaaaaaaaaack.
love. celibacy and the waiting game? taking the advice ofthe tarot cards? letting my heart rule everything eles?
you would think i would have gone to bed by now. i'm tired and i can barely finish a sentence in my head ... yet i'm awake. talking to him.
no.
not a chance.

ha hahahah.

Nadia Arsenault
can someone please explain to me what a gap year is??? heard that term on tv today and I have no clue what it is supposed to be....2 days left of work!
2 hrz b4 · <3 · $p@m

Brittany Cousins It's like taking a year off between university years, sometimes to travel :P
4b0u7 4n h0ur b4 · <3

Mick Suffield It is common in australia and europe, you take a year break after high school and usually go work at a school overseas or just travel.
4b0u7 4n h0ur b4 · <3

Bradford McKinney A "Gap Year" is when there is a hole in the time-space continuum, where up to 12 months vanish without any recollection of those who were present during this period.
An example would be 1966, or 1843. No one remembered a thing.

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Jacob Conley
I just opened a fortune cookie at a Vietnamese restaurant. I got 5 fortunes in one cookie, all of which say "Food is Sex." What the fuck does this mean?
2 hrz b4 v!@ 3y3f0ne · <3 · $p@m

Thierry Pelletier Happy ending?
2 hrz b4 · <3

Jacob Conley But, why FIVE of them?
4b0u7 4n h0ur b4 · <3

Thierry Pelletier Very happy ending?

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Matthew Powell
Have a place lined up In Browns court need other roomate anyone interested?
3 hrz b4 · <3 · $p@m

Liam Bjork i might be interested im sketched about my apt atm cause theres a fucking venomous exotic tarantula and yaaa i dont like that.
3 hrz b4 · <3 · 3 p33pz

resistance!

when a guy looks in your eyes and marvels at then.
when he makes up a song for you on his guitar.
when he invited you to watch a movie with him despite it being 1:30 am and him having a 9:30.
when he asks if you're going back home to sleep ...
and yet you're able to resist you deserve a gold medal. or at least those new york fries with onion and tomato shit on top.
in the week since becoming single i have been invited over by guys four of the seven nights. i still enjoy how right on the money vestford was!

day of joy

well, i thought my day of joy was going to be seriously joyless ... but it ended ... ok? i did two things i have wanted to do for the past little while. first, i went back to tibbits. it was not at all what i had imagined it to be. it looked the same and smelled the same and i walked down the dungeon of a hallway and touched the ceiling. i would have known three girls on my floor if i had lived there this year. nice to see the sights and the low hanging ceiling and the pool table with balls again and the furniture in the lounge and laundry room and the lounge with a copy of the brunswickan sitting on that first burgundy couch. oh, the brunswickan on the couch. we sat there and we read it and we made fun of steve harps hair. and we talked until 6 am. that place brings back memories of timmy as well. walking down that hall, opening that door, laying in those beds, banging my head. blanket fort, stir fry, potatoes, easy mac, my own fingernails.
in keeping with the joy ...
when i got back to my room i had both a text and msn message from vestford. i guess he'd just noticed the breakup on my facebook. in keeping with whatever the day he was just vestford. nothing more, nothing less.

streetlights, people

look back on the moments you've sung along to journey with a group. chances are they are some of the greatest, right?

- driving in meagan's car in the summer of 2009, when it came on the radio. the four of us sang along.
- frosh week here, it was performed during jam night.
- adrienne and i used to sing along when it came on the radio at work.
- glee club, during rehearsal we sang it as a group.
- it's always popular during karaoke nights at boom.

last night vestford was just wonderfully sweet. i was getting back from nick's and i guess i looked kind of crestfallen. we passed in the hall and then he turned around and nudged my door open to ask if i was alright. i gave him a feeble yes and he does what he always does. he ruffled my hair up. he's coming around.

still love me?
yeah.
how about you?
probably.

were we running out of things to say by the end? and everything he told me about his adventures this summer? what am i to make of that? i've got these two people and i don't have reason to trust either of them.

my point is, never EVER undermine me again.
my point is,
WE ARE GOING TO BE NEIHGBOURS.

i must have the weirdest sense of humor. i think it runs in my family. my mom's side to be exact.
"stop being so fucking stupid." ... that's not something just anyone would say to me.

not again ... !

i went to walmart yesterday to talk to val about working there for my fifth summer in a row this year. basically she looked at me and said 'hun, you always have a job here', which is nice and not nice at the same time. i really do have a love/hate relationship with that place. mostly love, but at times i want to push it all off a cliff. but unless i can find a job at some locally owned store then i guess it's more vest for me.
i don't mind the vest because they let you wear basically anything underneath it.
also, my friends that i made there last year ... they've all stayed in the same place. which is nice.

true dat.

mclean's and i have the same views on bieber.

"he stands for over-production, for vapidity, for the absence of fundamental songwriting values; he is seen as the ultimate in ultra-programmed, focused-grouped, no-talent tennybopper automata." tee hee.

hi blog!

kay sooooo. hi. now i feel all awkward with you because i feel like you only know that i'm doing this because people are going to read it. i always knew you had feelings. i just coughed and it didn't sound good. i actually thought i was dieing last night it was so bad. woke up the ginger, was scared i was going to wake up my neighbour.
i just thought i'd mention i have the best guy friend in the world. silly me, when i got back to mack on sat night i just had to see him. i asked to hang out but then i realized the time and my current state so i said to never mind. he said to come on over anyway. we walked around campus in the freezing cold at 3:30 am. when i'd fall down on the ice he'd pick me back up.

ritual

For over 70, 000 years humans have been partaking in rituals. The earliest known ritual was performed by the Sanpeople of the Kalahari Desert region of Botswana. In this ritual they honoured a six foot tall, 20 foot wide stone carved python. The Sanpeople believed the human races had originated from a python. They would bring spearheads from miles to the site and perform a burning ritual. When the fire light from the burning spear heads hit the snake carving above it the snake gave the illusion of movement. The Sanpeople did this in a tribute to their creator.
This is just one of the thousands of rituals performed by cultures all over the world. There are many different types; some public, some private, some spiritual, some secular. When a Jewish boy turns 13 and girls turn 12 they go through the ritual of a bar mitzvah. It`s a precise religious ceremony during which they become a son or daughter of the commandments and is an example of the more religious side of rituals. They don`t have to be focused or have a religious aspect to them. Secular rituals are numerous and involve all different collections of people. Sports teams have ritual cheers and warm ups before a big game, a secret society would perform a hand shake or a workplace would start their day off with a morning meeting. All these occurrences become a part of the daily lives of the members involved. Some rituals have deep, long standing meaning and tradition behind them like those often found in Greek letter organizations. They are a big part of every different organization and are keep secret to protect their importance.
People grow to love and depend on the rituals in their lives. They see them as a source of comfort and and they provide a feeling of belonging to something. Everyday rituals are important in fulfilling those roles. We all have things we do every day that bring us comfort. For some a cup of coffee first thing in the morning is the only way they know how to start their day. Others need to write in a journal and document the events of the day. I have rituals that I use to seek comfort as well. Every Tuesday I go to work around campus taking down and putting up posters for the student union. It`s important since my Tuesdays involve seven and a half hours of class. Taking a walk through campus has just the sort of calming effect I need. When I’m not lucky enough to be at school I have another important ritual. My best guy friends and I make a point to talk over MSN every day. It could be for 15 minutes or up to 6 hours. Regardless of how long our conversations last, hearing from him brightens my day no matter what. Those are the kind of rituals you want to depend on, the ones that you take some meaning from.

ever since being here,

ever since i found my place ...
i forgot how much i love to write. only when i'm sad do i seem to seek out this old guy here ... but now for some reason here i am. i don't know if i'm ever really happy. considering everything i have right know i should be. i should feel like i can do anything. yet i find smiling to be a chore.
must be nicks fault, mustn't it? who else has a full impact on my emotions?

eros, agape

i believe that when you are born you receive part of a soul that has been ripped in two. you go throughout your whole life trying to repair your soul. in order to make it whole you must find the one with the other half that fits just right. you two will be drawn together through fate and then actions of others. it's something that you can understand instantly. that first touch of their hand will electrify you. grow with this person, you will find it less painful this way. should something happen to draw you apart push yourselves back together, even through impossible distances.
all in all, i love you.

the stories behind the tweets

'i'm totally not wearing the pants i thought i put on this morning.'

i had done a big favor to jenn and taken her 730 am shift. this was my first one of the kind so i rolled out of bed at 30 and got dressed in a haze. halfway through the day, once i gained some consciousness i looked down at my pants and realized they were not the ones i though i had put on while getting ready for work. amanda laughed.

I look so good!
same morning. i looked at myself in the mirror. i was wearing my bright pink hoodie with an equally bright pink face. threw in a little tgs.

three year blue floatsam plushie?!
i was writing out anniversary on brits wall and i felt like it was spelled wrong. i copied it from google but got distraced by neopets and ended up copying blue floatsam plushie. when i went to paste what i thougoht was anniversary i got blue floatsam plushie.

happiness is licking gavin crawford's face
... sometimes i don't make any sense.

the number one just feel from the ceiling. seriously
i was laying in bet and out of nowhere a piece of paper with the number 1 printed on it lands on my face.

oh boy, you have no idea.
nick said he loved me to death.

My Soundtrack

This would be the soundtrack to my life, if my life needed one. Which it doesn't.

1. 1000 Miles - Vanessa Carlton, Fall of 2002

2. These Things I'll Never Say - Avril Lavigne, Winter 2002

3. Clocks - Coldplay, Spring 2003

4. Boys of Summer - Atari, Summer 2003

5. Something More - Ryan Malcom, Fall 2003

6. Numb - Linken Park, Winter 2003

7. Milkshake - Kelis, Spring 2004

8. Sunburn - Gordie Sampson, Summer 2004

9. American Idiot - Green Day, Fall 2004

10. Lala - Ashlee Simpson, Winter 2004

11. Breath - Anna Nalick, Spring 2005

12. Everything Burns - Anastasia & Ben Moody, Summer 2005

13. Because of You - Kelly Clarkson, Fall 2005

14. Whisky Lullaby - Rex Goudie & Melissa O'Neil, Winter 2005

16. Strange Heaven - Emm Gryner, Spring 2006

17. Julia - Emm Gryner, Summer 2006

18. Sweet Destroyer - Emm Gryner, Fall 2006

19. Goodnight and Go - Imogen Heap, Winter 2006

20. The Last Page - Emily Haines and The Soft Skeleton, Spring 2007

21. Shut up and Drive - Rihanna, Summer 2007

22. Harmonicas & Tambourines - Hot Hot Heat, Fall 2007

23. Andy, You're a Star - The Killers, Winter 2007

24. Off he Goes - Pearl Jam, Spring 2008

25. Great DJ - the Ting Tings, Summer 2008

26. I can't pick just one song from the fall of 2008 to represent everything I have gone through since I seemed to change playlists weekly. I would sit down to find something to listen to only to discover that I don't like any of it. They only one that had a chance of embodling everything is Long December by The Counting Crows. Other than that honrable mention goes to Hope for the hopeless - A Fine Frenzy, Paint it Black - Vanessa Carlton, Chemical World - Blur and Hands on Me - Also vanessa Carlton. Here's hoping for a more stable 09.

27. this is a tricky grey area for me becuase as far as my memory concerns me this time didn't exactly happen. so i'm not sure what i listened to. how about Stand in the Rain - Superchick.

28. Young as the Night - Emm Gryner, Spring 2009

29. Slow Dancing in a Burning Room - John Mayer, Summer 2009

30. Sex - Dan Bern, Fall 2009

31. Owls; and Other Birds of Prey - Darren Eedens, Winter 2009

32. Rico - Emm Gryner, Spring 2010

33. A Slight Discomfort - The Hold Steady, Summer 2010

34. Gold Soul Of Rock And Roll - Emm Gryner, Fall 2010

terms and phrases fall term

I'm really busy ... and super shy.
who said it: russell.
what it means: he wanted to see kendra again but wouldn't come right out and say it. instead came up with these two excuses which can be used to get ones self out of any undesirable situation/activity.

rusty trombone,
who said it: joel.
what it means: i don't know, he won't tell me.

what are you sayin' at?
who said it: nick, and only nick.
what it means: his half newfie way of beginning conversations. also the only way he starts conversations.

so i was balls deep in this guys ass and i go to give him a reach-around and he has a hard-on. what a fag!
who said it: joel, peter, cory, alex and davith.
what it means: they are gay. really really just flaming homosexuals.

QUACK!
who said it: tia.
what it means: QUACK!

i know i sound like as asshole ... but ...
who said it: bradford.
what it means: i really am a gigantic asshole and you are already aware of it.

she's my main bitch!
who said it: brittany.
what it means: brit is bffs with mother theresa.

teeyah! teeyah! teeyah! teeyah!
who said it: me.
what it means: i desperately need tia's attention on a level most people will never understand.

liz ... liz ...liz ...liz ...
who said it: nick and russell, later liz and i.
what it means: they need me to assist them with the most common daily activities they're too lazy to do on their own.

ohh ... girl number!
who said it: scott pilgrim and joel.
what it means: joel's reaction when he first got my number (or so he tells me).

i wonder why no one has tapped that?
who said it: brittany.
what it means: sometimes when a guy is so cute that you just want to ravage him, yet he's still a virgin you find yourself wondering why nobody has taken his coveted v-card. examples include joel and russell.

Dirteh dirteh jungle cats? With chronic diseezes.
who said it: brittany.
what it means: Are these jungle felines you speak of quite filthy? Also, do they suffer from any long term maladies?

our coffee tastes happy.
who said it: the coffee & friends sign downtown and later liz and i.
what it means: coffee can be happy!

team joel!
who said it: only the cool kids.
what it means: they know what team to support and which team will win. yayy team joel!

team cory.
who said it: sad, misinformed kids.
what it means: equal to supporting slytherin in the house cup or quidditch final.

pufferfish

i'm pretty much happy here all the time.
how did i get so lucky?

you acted human today

glee club, that was something in it's own .

& he just kind of stood there

& he said ...
damn. i want to punch you very hard in the nuts.

just realized

i hope my proter doesn't remember me as the half-naked girl he thought he was saing from bradford's room on halloween last year.
also, i hope the reason bradford now averts his eyes when he sees me is some sexual reason, and not the fact that he's a total douch. becuase it is well documented that i turn him on. and nick. god, i want to stick my head in a oven every time i think about that. now we're back to the way things were. the timing or something wasn't on our side. i still want to break out in tears. this year i didn't have to go through it alone though, i had friends. it put a stop on me being such a basket case though. i went home with a guy friday night just to calm my inner self who has been down on her knees, pulling her hair out and screaming ever since mine and nick's lips touched.
however, i feel i must put this out there:
WORST. KISSER. EVER
drunk dave? better. creepy colin? better. Bradford? 10,000 time better.
i don't care though, i still love him with every nerve i own.

nothing is ever this perfect

i kissed nick. well, i more than kissed nick. i got what i wanted; passion, tounges and squeezes from him. on top of a building at 2 am, none the less. it was so perfect that every time i think about it i feel as if i'm going to vomit.

always wanted to ...

make a post and share my crazy eating habbits with the world, so today i shall.
in the last 24 hours i have eaten:
nine tomato and olive oil falvoured trisut crackers alone in my room.
one really delish cookie from the first floor poctor
one of those weird toast-like crackers dipped in jam, at the suggestion of nick.
five cinnamon falvoured mini wheat cereal things.
one glass of peach drink.

the weird thing is that i'm not even hungry. this isn't normal for me.

december first, 2008

i wrote this on here :
"Timmy tried to convince me I liked Nick last night. How much simpler things would be."

can we all laugh together right now? ahahahahahah. back then i thought nick was one weird child. i thought timmy was the most amazing thing i had ever met. my oh my how we all change.

plastic bag?

at the end of the day it was never about your iph or how much momeny was in the drawer. it was about finding things that got you through the day and making yourself smile.
i had a dream i was back there last night. it must have been the first since the dreams stoped a long time ago. it was just the pure enjoyment of a 8 hour shift, how it could be broken up into sections, each section taken at a time. two hours, then one and half hours and then the hour, then three or four. it was always easy to make it through. the longest i ever worked was nine and a half hours. because lucas called me and i didn't have a reason not to, i mean i was standing right at the cash. number three, the day after easter ... i would rather have been enywhere but there. now katie's leaving and nothing about that seems right. the three of us in three different places.
why are boys so difficult to get along with? with the exception of one of them i pretty much want to stomp on the nuts of every guy i know right now :)
i'm glad i came back here, to remind myself of how much it's affected me. i think if i made a list of all the factors that brough me back it would go something like,
1. nicolas
2. mackenzie
3. coffee!
4. campus
5. i want a degree.
i might as well be throwing my money down the drain. but i'm having a time in the process and isn't that really what college is about? attending because you're so crazy in love with your best guy friend that being away from him makes you feel ill?
i think i'll go get my can opener back from him tomorrow.

make me happy again

last night happened in a sureal blur. i did what everyone had been telling me to do for the past month. it was hard, i didn't think i had it in me for the most part. it had to be done though ... and now everything is still wrong.
and now you and i? or outrageousnedd has been documented by everyone here, as well as emm gryner and several other perfect strangers. but ho hum.

what day is it?

i've been busy. the kind of busy that only comes with moving out of the house you've been living in the past year and into res. something that my some divine intervention ... actually happened. so, on with the letters.

here's number seven, to timmy.

sitting on that couch the night we met ... i was one lonely girl. and you were one good looking guy and i like the way we went together. i liked the taste of your kisses and i liked the feel of your hands. i liked that you were another human and that you were some form of company. looking back, it's so weird that we once had a thing. that i once felt so comfortable around you to break down crying infront of you.
now so many things have changed, you with your longterm girlfriend, me with my sanity. we're in the same city right now and the fact that i might run into you sometime soon ... well, i don't know how i feel about that. i loved you, and i never fully stop loving someone. you were my comfort when i was making it through those two weeks by myself. when i knew already that i wasn't able to do this all. maybe you did break my heart at the end but we were able to work through it. i like how we talk everyone once in a while, like we did today. it shows that there was something real, not just your carnal desire, that brought upon this. that desire of yours almost drove me mad. you got into my head like you would not believe. you once said i was worth a 4 hour trip from nova scotia to pei. you once said you loved me. and then that girl from your past changed it. i'm not mad, you know who i'm truley in love with.
in short, i miss your eyes. i miss pulling your hair. i miss the lab. i miss a crazy ammount of things from that year, a large chunk of them not pertaining to you. i hope i see you around.


number eight, my fav internet friend ...

here's to you, kimcrest, lover of saula and semy. fan of conan and tina, what brought us together. you PM'ed me on the old saula heaven back when it was ... black and pink i do believe. we eventually prgressed to lengthy mysapce emails. and now nothing. i don't know what happened but we stoped talking roguhly around the time i moved into tibbits so that may have something to do with it. you were my favourite becuase you were so wise and witty. cracking jokes about ryan sleeping with his cousin when you didn't know him. writing "just kidding ... but seriously", you made my life with that. i mostly hate that we lost touch, i'm sorry, it should never have happened. i found your zazzel store about a year ago, that just blew my mind. i remember you telling me you made t-shirts, i didn't know it was on such a large scale though. i hope univeristy is going well for you as you are graduating this year. it's getting better for me, it really is. i hope all your ships come true and all your fanfics have happy endings.
fredcrest ... out!

number noufffe.
to the rockin' emm gryner,

your music is the soundtrack to my world. nothing has been the same since april 14th 2006 when i heard christopher, that song changed my entire views on modern music. right then and there i replaced my copies of hillary duff, green day and kelly clarkson with asianblue, science fair and the summer of high hopes. i can relive the past four years by listening to your music.